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My name is Stephanie. I'm 15 years old. I live in a small town and I have a pretty average life with a not so average past. I'm fine with that.

As of right now...

My name is Stephanie... My best friends, Catie and Kelley are super cool. My twin sister's name is Christina. I don't sleep a lot and when I do I don't sleep well. I have lots of nightmares that I never wake up from and weird dreams that linger in my brain. I'm not ashamed of my past, but don't expect me to broadcast it everywhere. In fact, I may not even share it at all. I'll never admit I like someone to their face. I'll never be happy with the way I look. I'll never have the self-confidence I seek in others. There's not much to tell... but that's my name.

Monday, September 27, 2010

So this whole "every weekday" thing ...
isn't working out.
so how about every week?
And we'll call it even?
I thought so.
Eyecandy called me pretty today.
Well... he agreed that I was pretty.
And it was behind my back, so you know it was true!
Cuz Kelley and her friend Britney were talking about me,
(Kelley, fully aware that Eyecandy was listening in)
and she brought up that I was a good drawer and she and Britney started ooh-ing and aw-ing over that. And then Kelley said I was pretty.
Britney said something (I don't remember what, something like "Oh yeah, I know right?!")
And Then Eyecandy said "yeah."
I know it's nothing.
But it actually is something!
Cuz Eyecandy doesn't do that sort of stuff!
He doesn't usually talk ... like at all.
And he could've just stayed silent since he wasn't actually part of the conversation.
But no.
He agreed to me being pretty:)
It made my heart smile.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010


Oh yeah.
I have a new friend.
He and I are slowly becoming like besties. . .
kind of.
I was contemplating adding him to my wall
But I was friends with his sister, Melanie, first.
And it would be odd to put him up without her.
But I don't really feel like putting her up.
I guess I'll leave it for now.
But I call him CollinTheLiar because
1) his name is Collin
2) He lies and says he's a better writer than me
3) CollinLiar doesn't sound right. . . it needs a "The."

You're No Angel.

I don't really have anything to say.
But I'm trying to write everyday... or
every weekday at least.
Eyecandy keeps staring at me.
And I found out he likes girls with bad posture.
(Weird, huh?)
But I dooo have bad posture... so . hm?
Perhaps, perhaps, per-er... haps.

Monday, September 20, 2010

My Candy.

I haven't written in a while.
School has given me no motivation.
I have no classes with Eyecandy(this guy I've liked since the 8th grade)
but my friend Kelley does and Catie.
Kelley actually is becoming friends with him.
This is good, because she's already mentioned me a lot and found out what he's looking for in a girl.
But this is bad, because even though she doesn't mean to, Kelley has a way of getting every guy she comes in contact with to fall for her.
But I also have a class with My Boy(this guy I've liked since the middle of 9th grade)
but he and I don't talk...
but I'm friends with his best friend. . . so is that a step closer?
I don't know.
I'm so sick right now.
I seriously feel like crying.
But I can't miss any school cuz its only the 3rd week, and I'm missing this Friday because of the Sewing Expo that my mom just has to take Christina and me too. . .

Friday, September 3, 2010

Peach Festival.

Okay, so Driver's Training is over.
My last drive is scheduled for tomorrow at 7am (Saturday).
Christina's is tomorrow at 11am. And she is paired with Jaguar.
Since I'll get my certificate
(not the actual permit yet [have to go to Secretary of State for that and he's not open on Saturdays])
My mom will probably let me drive her
and I'll get to see Jaguar one last time before I watch him disappear in my rearview mirror.

But todayyy
is Peach fest!
And for everyone who doesn't live in southern Michigan,
that's a big festival that everyone goes to.
It's a carnival, parades, food, little shops, everything.
The whole nine yards.
The entirity of my town is filled with fun.
And I live so close to it that I walk out my front door and
I can already hear screams from the Freak Out.
It's amazing.
And I'm going today with Christina, Kelley, and probably some other people.
I might see Miles, Toni, Ripley, and Spazz there.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Happy Fuckin Birthday.

12:01 am.
Happy fuckin birthday to me.

Cute as you.

Jaguar doesn't like me.
Doesn't even think I'm cute.
At least, that's what he told Catie.
Maybe its cuz he thinks she's cute.
When asked, he said

No, not really.
I mean, they're not ugly.
But they're not as cute as you.

Catie didn't tell me.
I know her Facebook info.
I logged in and read her messages.
Should've saved myself the finger movement.
Should've saved my breath.
Anyways, I passed my test
and tomorrow's the last day of Driver's Training.
It couldn't come faster.