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My name is Stephanie. I'm 15 years old. I live in a small town and I have a pretty average life with a not so average past. I'm fine with that.

As of right now...

My name is Stephanie... My best friends, Catie and Kelley are super cool. My twin sister's name is Christina. I don't sleep a lot and when I do I don't sleep well. I have lots of nightmares that I never wake up from and weird dreams that linger in my brain. I'm not ashamed of my past, but don't expect me to broadcast it everywhere. In fact, I may not even share it at all. I'll never admit I like someone to their face. I'll never be happy with the way I look. I'll never have the self-confidence I seek in others. There's not much to tell... but that's my name.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Sunday Sunny Day.

Wow.
Ever had one of those days where you've done so much, but you feel like you've done nothing in years?
That's what today was.
It was one of those "Blah" days.
Last night I spent the night at Miles, and Shannon (his gf) did too.
And when I woke up, I got in a fight with Kelley, because for some reason she made a Really big deal about me spending the night at Miles' house... which I have no idea why. And then she accused me of changing. And she told me she's moving away at semester end. Anndd. she told me she almost hooked up with her 18 year old (she's 15) ex boyfriend, and drank with him.
They haven't even talked in five months, they went out for like 4 days and they broke up because she found out he had a kid he didn't mention.
So I got really fucking pissed at her for making such a fucking stupid decision and NOT EVEN TELLING ME ABOUT IT.
Thought we were supposed to be best friends.
Anyway, I calmed down and read an entire book today.
It was Forever by Judy Blume. . .
And I realized I am SO ready for a boyfriend.
Hanging with Shannon and Miles got me thinking about it, because they are just so cute and so perfect together.
And that stupid book confirmed it.
I won't say I'm lonely, even if that's the truth.
Idk.
I accidentally posted My Boy's name as my status on facebook... he commented. I liked one of his photos and one of his statuses and commented on one of them. We talked in class a few times last week.
Maybe I'll pursue it further.. I'll wait two weeks and if nothing has Really happened, I'll send him a message on Facebook. And we'll start talking.
Idk.
And, you remember Jaguar? Well Catie still talks to him. And they're like Dawgs and he invited her to ice skating this winter, and she invited me.
We'll see what happens.
I wish I lived in the 70's when everything was very casual.
:J

Monday, October 18, 2010

Homecoming

It was okay.
I went with Kelley, Melanie, CollintheLiar and some other kids.
Kelley and I got ready at my house.
and then we went to Melanie's.
There was like 10-20 people there.
And we went to the school in an RV.
It was pretty rad.
I didn't dance with Eyecandy, though I kinda/sorta almost did.. in that if Melanie had been able to find me, I would have.
And My Boy wasn't even there...
But that's okay.
And that was Saturday.
Sunday I hung out with Miles and Shannon, his girlfriend.
I had a good time. Shannon threw up twice.
And then that night(lastnight) I threw up at 2:30am.
And now I'm home from school.
so yeah.
:T

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

SNUGGIE SPIRIT.

Have you got spirit?
CUZ I SURE DO!
Romeo's classy.
Monday: Class shirt Day
Tuesday: Neon Day
Wednesday: Jungle Day
Thursday: Class Color Day
Friday: Homecoming Shirt Day

I didn't dress up for Monday.... I don't have a class shirt.
Today, Tuesday, I wore my neon yellow soccer socks, a grey skirt, and neon green soccer jersey with grey boots.
Tomorrow, I'm wearing my leopard print SNUGGIE! :::DDDD
Thursday, I'm wearing allllll green. Cuz Sophomores are green this year.
And Friday... well I'm just wearing normal clothes.

And then Saturday is HOMECOMING DANCE!!
Catie, Kelley and I are going<3
No one has asked any of us, but that's quite alright, quite alright.
Dates would ruin the trio thing.
Christina's not even going... that buttface.
But yeah. I just had to share this detail of the snuggie.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Ohkay.
So this whole "every weekday" thing ...
isn't working out.
so how about every week?
And we'll call it even?
I thought so.
:3
Eyecandy called me pretty today.
Well... he agreed that I was pretty.
And it was behind my back, so you know it was true!
Cuz Kelley and her friend Britney were talking about me,
(Kelley, fully aware that Eyecandy was listening in)
and she brought up that I was a good drawer and she and Britney started ooh-ing and aw-ing over that. And then Kelley said I was pretty.
Britney said something (I don't remember what, something like "Oh yeah, I know right?!")
And Then Eyecandy said "yeah."
I know it's nothing.
But it actually is something!
Cuz Eyecandy doesn't do that sort of stuff!
He doesn't usually talk ... like at all.
And he could've just stayed silent since he wasn't actually part of the conversation.
But no.
He agreed to me being pretty:)
It made my heart smile.
<3

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

CollinTheLiar.

Oh yeah.
Also.
I have a new friend.
He and I are slowly becoming like besties. . .
kind of.
I was contemplating adding him to my wall
>>>
But I was friends with his sister, Melanie, first.
And it would be odd to put him up without her.
But I don't really feel like putting her up.
So.
I guess I'll leave it for now.
But I call him CollinTheLiar because
1) his name is Collin
2) He lies and says he's a better writer than me
3) CollinLiar doesn't sound right. . . it needs a "The."
:)

You're No Angel.

Uhm.
I don't really have anything to say.
But I'm trying to write everyday... or
every weekday at least.
Eyecandy keeps staring at me.
And I found out he likes girls with bad posture.
(Weird, huh?)
But I dooo have bad posture... so . hm?
Perhaps, perhaps, per-er... haps.
:)

Monday, September 20, 2010

My Candy.

I haven't written in a while.
School has given me no motivation.
I have no classes with Eyecandy(this guy I've liked since the 8th grade)
but my friend Kelley does and Catie.
Kelley actually is becoming friends with him.
This is good, because she's already mentioned me a lot and found out what he's looking for in a girl.
But this is bad, because even though she doesn't mean to, Kelley has a way of getting every guy she comes in contact with to fall for her.
But I also have a class with My Boy(this guy I've liked since the middle of 9th grade)
but he and I don't talk...
but I'm friends with his best friend. . . so is that a step closer?
I don't know.
I'm so sick right now.
I seriously feel like crying.
But I can't miss any school cuz its only the 3rd week, and I'm missing this Friday because of the Sewing Expo that my mom just has to take Christina and me too. . .
yay.
:'(